The Lazy Life

I'm actually in the office today working! Shock of all shocks! Well sort of working, ha. I find my mind wandering entirely too easily and too frequently. Have you noticed that the less you work the more you dont want to work? I've had practically this entire week off work, and suddenly come Friday there's work... but I dont feel like doing it. I dont wanna. I'm no longer in the work, prodcutive, earn your keep, mindset. I want to sit on my lazy rear end in the lawn chair underneath the shade tree at home and watch my doggers play in their kiddie pool, which is the same thing I've done for the past 4 days.

I've looked at multiple job search sites, both local and national and come up with nothing, nada, zilch, zippo, whatever "nothing" is in German, French, Swedish, Arabic, and Portugese (which I cant even spell). It's not that the sites have no listings, it's that I'm too picky. Why would I want to work in a dungeon of an office at a manufacturing plant and make $10-15k more? Hmm, maybe because it's $10-15k more!!! And maybe this manufacturing company is quite nice and offers their office personnel top floor offices with an entire wall of windows, and a free snack bar! ... I'll never know. I dont even know if I want to work for this local bank office I applied to and I know there will be windows there. As if windows is the entire reason I'd accept or reject an offer ... the snack bar helps too. ;)

I'm stuck in this rut of laziness, it's disgusting, it's blah. If I worked my butt off I'd probably feel a whole lot better ... but how can I work my butt off if there's no work to be done?

Mom and I got in this discussion that is making me more antsy to move on with a different job. I dont really want to get into details here, but apparently being paid while not working (though it isnt by my choice) doesnt sit well with her. And it shouldnt, they have plenty of bills to pay, especially after finding out that the insurance deductable has to be paid every year even if it's for ongoing treatment that began last year (flaming insurance rip offs). The last thing they need is to pay an employee salary that is barely working. Unfortunately they love me too much to switch it to hourly which would either force me to quit immediately or find a second job and deal with schedule conflicts and unexpected events that need immediate attention at the farm.

Where's my high school guidance counselor when I need her? ... Hey, I know where she lives. ;)

Have a lovely day!